Gary Larson on the domestic condition

Talking to a 2-year-old

Disciplining a 3-year-old

Coexisting with a five-year-old

Assigning tasks to a six-year-old

Mom serves lunch

Ahem.

Dad helps Mom with her problems

Moral ambiguity

The woods: larger than rumored

Here's something that's been rattling around in my head for a while. I was talking to a mother of five with a wide age spread. She told me how she had to take an evenings-and-weekends job when their older children were in high school, and she thought it would be OK since they were older. It went very badly. She concluded her sad story by saying, "It turned out they needed me around at least as much then as they had when they were little. In some ways, they needed me more."

I really appreciated her being willing to tell me this.

Riddle me this

Why don't they just make all the passenger seats in a car face backwards?

Growl.

I like how everything a housewife does is cool as long as it's not a housewife doing it. Cooking, gardening, sewing, yarny things, painty things, buildy things, and whatever else are cool and require top-of-the-line equipment and accessories when they are pursued by hobbyists. If I do it, it's boring and vaguely embarrassing, and cheapo brand products are more than sufficient tools for my pathetic twitches in such directions.

Best of all, a dad who stays home with his kids is the hugest hero of all time, whereas I only do it because I don't have any respectable education, skills, earning potential, or ambition.

When billboards are all you've got to think about

Iron Skillet sounds like a family restaurant in Mordor.

Doesn't Mrs. Orcwell deserve the night off?

Random thoughts of a lactational nature

Nursing BabyOne was difficult for me, physically and psychologically. While the mechanical difficulties were trifling compared to what others have experienced, they were sufficient and persistent enough to make me regularly threaten (albeit emptily) to give over the whole endeavor. I also felt quite keenly what I perceived at the time to be the solitary burden of the experience and the restrictions it placed on my activities and schedule (said baby being averse to a bottle--which was a terrible nuisance anyhow-- and quite attached to nursing on a schedule—his schedule). People would sometimes reference the “magical moments” of breastfeeding and I would do my best to smile and nod, hoping no one noticed that a mere earthling had accidentally landed on Planet La Leche League.

Here’s the thing about breastfeeding: No one else can do it for you. When your infant nursling is hungry, you must feed it. It doesn’t matter if you yourself are hungry, or tired, or in a very inconvenient public place, or in the very crucial middle of making supper. You must stop what you are doing and feed the baby. And if this is your first baby, or if the baby is newish, or you are shyish, even the “publicity” of a room containing friends and relatives may be too public for you, and you must withdraw to the solitary confinement and possibly painful appeasement of an impatient, ungrateful guzzler. (And if you are at times employed away from the baby, you must still make provision to feed the baby, likely necessitating that your breaks are consumed by quality time with uncomfortable apparatus.)

But! Here’s the thing about breastfeeding, that over the course of three subsequent nurslings, I’ve come to discover: No one else can do it for you. No one else gets to see that contented curve of her cheek, just so, in the moonlight. For you alone is reserved that first amazed look when, at several weeks of age, she finally becomes aware that she is not exactly dining solo: “Hey! You’re here too?! ” You get to see the chubby legs kick in excited anticipation of a satisfying meal. Yours are the little sideways glances and quick grins between gulps. When she’s tired or strung-out and no one else can comfort her, you can have her nestling in shuddering contentment within seconds. If you feel like she’s been passed around enough at a family gathering, or if you need a break from the family gathering, you can plead baby’s nutritional needs and seek a quiet corner of escape.

No one else can do it for you. As with so much of motherhood in this mortal vale, the burden is joy; and the joy, burden. Some days, the balance tips toward joy, and some weeks, the burden seems likely to break the balance altogether. Often, it’s just pretty darn hard to tell the difference, but grace gives us enough glimpses to keep us going until the Day when things are finally sorted out for good. Thanks be to God for his inexpressible gift!

Looking grayt

My mom had completely gray hair in her early thirties. While I don't seem to share her gift for accelerated gray, I'm expecting this Basic Brown to start phasing itself out any day now. Previously the gray/pregnant combination I may have in my future has been cause for alarm, but having been introduced to Trudy, I'm rethinking things. Gray+pregnant=freakin awesome. Doubtless it will work at least this well for me.

HT: my own freakin awesome mother-in-law.

We all start somewhere

A while ago, I received an evening call from a friend. I couldn't talk. I was playing Yahtzee with my big kids. Big kids! Yahtzee! I have big kids who play Yahtzee! She was just as amazed, having only little ones herself, and thus no Yahtzee.

Like-mindedness does not equal like-lifedness. Back when we were solidly in baby/little kid territory, I found it most vexing when a like-minded person five kids ahead of me would say something like, "Wipe down the toilet while the kids brush their teeth!" or "Dad is great at doing [X] with the older kids!" or "Our family loved putting on a Reader's Theater of Torquato Tasso! When we finished that we read the Federalist Papers together--what fun!" Lucky, lucky you. Please don't tell me, "Even our five-year-old can help out a little!" In a house where the oldest kid is five, the amount of help a five-year-old is able to contribute is well known, and not a cause for great optimism.

I remember thinking in those early days about women I knew who had lots of kids (like, four), and being completely unable to comprehend FOUR pregnancies, giving birth FOUR times, living through FOUR postpartums, nursing for FOUR+ years of life. After our first baby was born, I told my husband, "I can't believe anyone ever has more than one kid." Sometimes I still can't. I can't believe I have. I have not forgotten that first baby. How I truly despaired of my life at her delivery. How ruined and hopeless I felt afterward, and for how long. How nursing her was, without a doubt, the hardest thing I have ever done. How the hardest thing I have ever done took months measured in quarter hours, not a bold moment of heroic decision. How I couldn't smile then any more than I could fly. How the whole time I was thinking, I cannot, cannot do this ever again.

The existence of apparently happy mothers nearing the end of their parturitional careers at least provided evidence that there were some women who could do this without going to prison or having their kids apostasize and write Sedaris-esque memoirs of their outlandish childhoods. But no bland testimony of "You'll make it!" actually made me think I would. Every reminder of how blessed these blessings are and affirmation of what a good job I was doing from someone who couldn't possibly know what kind of job I was doing just reminded me what a bad person I was.

We all start somewhere. "This too shall pass" and "It's worth it" are things I already know. Being prodded with them doesn't help me through the lowest times, devoid as they are of such clemencies as nights passed in sleep or 45 minutes alone (to PRAY! to BATHE!). I know it will pass and it's worth it. If I didn't know that I would be under 24-hour surveillance in some institution. Anyone who wants to help a mom out can say a prayer, mail a package, come over and read to the kids for an hour, keep vigil hither or thither. Anyone who wants to make her sadder can force her to respond politely to the wisdom of the ages when she's mucking through this doleful hour or month or year.

So, friend, I'm sorry I couldn't talk. I look forward to your Yahtzee-playing days for you, because Yahtzee is fun. I have nothing but respect, sympathy, and prayer for the gutting it out you're doing now. It's warm again; let's plan a day soon.

Postparty

Here, off the top of my head, are some of the best postpartum gifts I've ever received:

A week of meals (Thank you wonderful people!!)

A batch of muffins

A busket of granola

Pillars of the Earth

Sweatpants, cheeringly blue

A pint of Kopp's red raspberry custard (which, sadly, I can't hope to receive again in my current locale)

Observation 1: These are almost all food. The joy of the meals is self-explanatory, but why should I still remember so fondly a dozen muffins I received over 8 years ago? Because they were the only thing I ate for as long as they lasted. For some reason, when I have a new baby, I cannot feed myself. I stand in the kitchen, feeling hungry, holding the baby, looking at all the food there, and thinking: It's all too hard. I can't do it. And I wander back out, sad and still hungry. This has improved since my mother-in-law has made a habit of coming to stay with us for a while when we have a new baby. I awaken from a nap with the baby on one side of me and a plate full of tacos lovingly tucked in on the other. But the problem can persist for a long time, so if you want to help a postpartum lady out, unwrap a bunch of string cheeses and put them front and center in her fridge with a note that only she's allowed to eat them.

Observation 2: Pillars of the Earth caught me by surprise, but wow. I read that book day and night for a week, and although real me felt like pure junk, imaginary me was having the time of her life building cathedrals (disclaimer: there was quite a bit of yucky stuff I skipped, particularly with the skittery postpartum brain). Now I always save a giant book I really want to read for postpartum. It helps.

Observation 3: You can never have too many sweat pants, especially postpartum.

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