You know that thing where you wake up, and no one is crying and everything is fine, and then 10-15 seconds later the baby starts crying?
I did that with our first baby, and it felt like maybe there was one thing I was doing right. I had some inexplicable connection to this baby whom I was completely failing in every other way.
Then for the next three this didn't happen at all and I thought, well, the other stuff is going better, but now I'm just a jerk. No more magical baby connection.
Well, it's back on Baby 5. And so now I'm wondering if it's actually the baby who has the mysterious power. Because what do I think of as soon as I wake up for no reason in the night? The baby. So maybe it's actually the baby whose brain hears my brain thinking about him, which then causes him to wake up.
If this theory is correct, I'm going to have to keep extra close watch on Babies 1 and 5.
I was having this awful dream that Mom was awake and not feeding me.